Klonapin

Did you know that klonapin is the answer? It's an anti anxiety medication. It's one of the meds I take for bipolar. With life being so hectic and DEMANDING lately, I've gotten a little .... shall we say..... uptight? My pdoc told me to take it during the day when things got tense, but for some reason I resisted this, thinking that I would become addicted, (which I probably will), but anyway I wasn't taking it, I only took it at night. Well.......... yesterday hubby took me out to eat at Applebee's. They have a weight watchers menu btw, so I got to stay on point with my diet. Anyway, after talking with him for a while, telling him all my woes, wishing for some alternative treatment for bipolar, whining, etc., I just decided to take it. I took it right then and there. The rest of the evening was much better. The world became a much better place!

I've already taken klonapin this morning, I waited a little bit too long, because shortly after taking it I made the mistake of walking over to Jackie's house, (my mother) and she gave me the usual "can you do this for me and that for me and that over there for me right now" thing. She makes me angry. Klonapin takes away the anger. I have no business taking care of this woman, and will write a long post about her as soon as I get a chance, but in a nutshell, she was a horrible mom, I grew up with violence, screaming and pure insanity. It's actually what kicked off the bipolar. Listening and witnessing that crap. Yes I'm angry. I'm not fond of her. BUT, she is my mom and I suppose I should take care of her. I'll write more later cuz it's doing my blood pressure no good right now to write about this. So I'll go print off the little things she needs, hand it to her and close the door behind, hoping she will not ask me for anything else today.

Bron